Again, it is monday. I have to go for work.Early in the morning, my body ached. It must be due to the training yesterday.The training yesterday was quite tiring, as we did the whole performance again and again for like more than 5 times.Furthermore, i'm holding the big air-balloon yesterday. It makes the whole training even more tiring.Haha, guess what qing de's balloon burst out of sudden. Never expect it will happen during the training, but it did.I was too far away from him so i didn't have the chance to see the balloon burst.Imagine, in the middle of your performance, your balloon burst out abruptedly while you were doing your moves, it must be quite of a shock.Yet, you must pretend nothing has happened, continue your moves and remain smiling.Oh goosh, hope nothing will occur on that day.
Haha, but seriously, i'm glad that i'm in jellyfish group or should i say chingay.I found out that i have turned into a happy, crazy haoyi eversince i joined this.Quite positive and self-motivating nowadays.It is like you have realised that life should be happy, instead of the other way round.
Lols.
Hope this life form will stay as long as possible. I like this "me". It's great.

woohoo, i have a great day today.
Many many thanks to joni.
She accompanied me to sing lor. Always, i went with felicia's that group of people.
Then ah, I wanted to sing with other people lor.
So thought of joni, and asked her to accompany me.
She's a great friend.
hehe.
Well, her accompany also brings me another unexpected guest: Ms Elleen.
Oh goosh, she is one crazy girl, always laughs non-stop de.
Sometimes, there isn't any reason behind her laughters. Do you believe it?
For no reason, she laughed. Then another moment, she laughed again.
Kinda scary hor?
But because of her, she made my day.
haha.
Made me laugh alot, and my cheek became stiff after that.
Wahahas.
A very cheerful, bubbly girl. Likes to mix with her more. =)

Yaya, and also, this session is great because both elleen and joni know how to harmonize.
So quite fun lahs and it sounded nice, although they might miss some notes.
Overall, they are quite li hai le.
Unlike me, i can't even harmonize.

Okay shall end here. Tml my chingay practice again.
Another fun fun day. Wee~

Many thoughts are going through my mind.
Ah i seemly hate myself, being that way when facing her.
Awkward and unfriendly.
That's not the usual me.
I want to show her how friendly i can be, and a good friend.
But when i saw her, there was somehow abit of uneasiness between us.
Seriously, hope that things proceed in a better way.

I'm..... lost of words.
Maybe disappointed in myself
Maybe sad about the outcome
Aiya, whatever it is...i shall give up the whole idea

hmmp~
Don't understand myself.
Why i can't be as normal as i always do when i see the person i'm interested?
Act looking away, avoiding any conversation
I guess that's me.
More or less, little confidence.

Still, i don't understand myself.
I can feel that i like her personalities
and i even pluck up my courage and try to talk to her
Yet, my inferiority is telling me to give up.
Is this a crush?

Many people said that i'm "poisoned"
as i simply see her face every now and then.
I know it's exagerating
I tried to stop, but it becomes worse.

I know it's great to have such sweet feeling
However, i still must consider one thing:
What if i like her and she don't like me?
What i'm doing now might becomes very irritating
and gradually,
she avoids me?

Ah, love is sweet at times but it can be a headache thing too.

Should i "miss" this very good girl and regret for life?
Or should i just forget about the whole thing and wait for the chance to come?

Hahas. Think that's the way of life.
Cruel decisions have to be made everytime.

haha, shall mention about yvonne. I planned to mention her in the later part when i saw again. And ya, i saw her again todae at the NDP audition lor. Ah, kinda lost of words when i saw her. Many memories flowed back into my mind as i gradually looked at her.
Face is slightly thinner, longer and she definitely looks prettier.
I guess the reason why im lost of words is because i have too many things to talk to her and ah.. hahas she looks more mature than the one that i remembered.
Hee, glad that i saw her again.
But ya, again i missed the chance of chatting with her.

Of course, i saw qing de too and they are now a couple.
Its kind of unbelievable, as i always think that they would never be together.
But actually, they did!
And that goes my second meet-up with you, yvonne. Haha. As for the first meeting, i shall not mention about it because its nothing much lahs. Saw you in the train, and ha! i don't recognise you. Ya then, it's a blur day.
So please dont blame me about that.

About the audition, got to laugh about it. Their warm-up was more difficult than the steps to learn. Guess what? They asked everyone to use their hands to touch the floor while they were splitting their legs. No joke! it's damn hard, especially for the guys. If you are not careful enough, i guess your legs might have gave his way and ah~ ouch~ you have done the utimate leg splitting. Lols.
There was nothing much special happening in the audition.
And ya, i saw my pretty cousin, shuxian.
She is the NDP trainer.
Oh goosh, hopefully im not in her team if not ah...that's it. Hahas.

k lahs. End here. Tired. *Yawn*

hm, yesterday while i was trying to sleep, i thought of Xu Wei Lun suddenly.
I was thinking whether she has any regret in life before the tragic accidents happened.
I guess no one will expect that she will die, even herself.
When i asked myself with this question, i also can't really answer it. I really have many things to do in life. I want to learn keyboard, saxphone, roller skating..etc
But seriously, if i only have a few minutes left in this world, i think i must say something to the girl. For now, i have someone whom i'm interested with.
Well, she's a good girl, i must say.
Filial, cheerful, pretty, sweet, noisy and simple should be the words to describe her.
Hm, i don't really know that around me, there is such a good girl.
I don't really hope much about her, but i wish to know her more.
I really chant for gohozon to give me the chance to know her even better. Simply, she's a great girl with great personalities.
I would regret if i "miss" to know her.
Many thanks to gohozon, if i didn't join chingay, i wouldn't notice about her. And then, i wouldn't know that she's such a nice girl.
So if i left a few minutes left in this world, i must tell her that i really like her.
Whether she likes me or not, it depends on her. At least, i have told my feelings and left no regret in my life. Right? hahas.

Lols. Just came back from Kallang. Argh. It missed my Chingay training! You know why? Because i remembered my training time wrongly.
I thought it should start at 7pm, but it actually started at 4pm. Sunday's chingay practice starts at 7pm !! Why i have forgotten that? Sians. Guess that it might due to yesterday's k-session lahs that makes me so blur. Yesterday, i celebrated felicia's birthday lor..then we went to TopOne at bugis de.. sang from 11pm to 5.30am.. kinda okay la..dun realli sang much wor.. because there were like 11 people..cant be i sang all the way bahs, right? Hm..well, in the end, though i don't sing much, i lost my voice later on. Don't understand what's the problem with my throat.. Didn't sing much or push my voice much yet...i LOST MY VOICE? oh my goodness. That was the first time i lost my voice without singing much. hahas..maybe my throat was telling me, " it's time to rest, i wanna sleep already... can give me a break..crazy boy singing at such timing..!!"
Lols.
Well, overall it was quite nice session lahs.. knew some new friends, like yongshun, allan, chen yong, eric..bah bahs. Ya and also, i got the feeling back again!
The feeling of being good terms with felicia, close to her, talk like the way we used to when we first met.
Another thing to mention...it's quite an achievement. I walked from Vivocity to Bugis!! I took like about 1hr and 45 mins wor..i walked with alicia and felicia. And we talked quite a lot of stuffs lahs..hahas like the feeling. Yeah.

Just went for a job recruitment interview.
Soon or later, without a stable income, i will get broke one day and wouldn't be able to go for my k-sessions.
Chinese new year is also coming around the corner.
And i have aimed for quite a few of things to buy for the season e.g another adidas shoes.
Yet, with my current financial status, i guess that it's the best for me to look for a job before i decide to buy that.
Ya anyway, i will be celebrating felicia's birthday tomorrow. Money will be spent and should be broke by then.
Also, currently i'm participating in Chingay'08 so see me on Tv on feb 17-18 (though beverly can't see it cos she's flying off to Australia). Guess that i will be also joining the NDP'08 too.
This year will be a fun year.
Must occupy all my days so that i can use all my time usefully.
Haha. End here. Tired.