I like the way you smile.
I like the time we spent together.
Wouldn't it be wonderful if we can be together?
Sadly, we can't.
Do you ever know i'm always peeking at you while you were looking away.
It makes me feel a sense of happiness because i can be that close to you.
You would never know how much i think and dream about you.
I would only let you know that i'm always available for you
whenever you need me,
whenever you need a support.
Don't blame me for not telling my true feeling to you.
It is for your own good and my own sake.
Sometimes, it would be better to be friends rather than being boyfriend/girlfriend.
But now, the line dividing them is blurred.
I don't know where we stand,
but i only can look at you silly now from a far end.
Because you have a boyfriend.



From:
A silly guy.

I just read through Beverly's blog and learn something from her.

Sometimes, there is thing which we can't be helped or forced.
No fate means no fate.
No matter how much you try or the efforts you put, the ending would always be the same: We only can be friend, nothing can be more than that.
You might be in love with her yet she feel uneasy with you, or it might be both of you have interest with each other but there is something in-between that makes both of you feel impossible to be together.

Seriously, seeing Beverly and chia ling in such a situation whereby they are at the edge of "can't be friend anymore" makes me feel even sad for them.
Being friends with them for 3 years, i feel that they are quite a good and close friends.
They care about each other,
and love being together with each other.
It would be a waste if such friends are lost because you can't be able to be his/her girlfriend or boyfriend.
I think chia ling should learn how to let go a relationship, which i believe there wouldn't be any ending if is being forced brutally.

Of course, i have no right to intervene their relationship.

But come to think about it, do you prefer trying to force your way through just to make a relationship possible, making your another partner miserable at the same time? Or do you prefer learn to let go of something which might be a good thing for both of you?
I don't know what they are thinking about.
However, if i'm given a choice, i would definitely let go of her like how i let go of Felicia.

As you all know, Felicia is my close and best friend.
She definitely is someone whom i wish to get into relationship with.
I can't explain what is the reason i would fall in love with her.
Haha! In fact, she is far from the type of girl i would lie my eye onto normally ( i might look at her once awhile)
But well, i know she is the only friend who knows me well enough.
Believe it or not, i have liked her quite a number of times and expressed my feeling to her.
But we still can't be together.
Well, this is what we so-called " no fate".
We are both comfortable with one another, able to talk frankly, and care for each other.
Yet, there is no ending for us.
So sad.

But life goes on.

Now, she has a boyfriend named Ivan. Pretty good looking and humorous some more.
I might be jealous sometimes whenever i went out with them. But think about it, Felicia might be even happier and has more smiles on her face with him since Felicia likes him a lot?

Haha perhaps it's time for me to focus on other thing, rather than thinking about relationship.
This isn't a time for me to get into a serious relationship, but to be mature and have a good thought about future.

I believe it's time for me to self-improve myself and make myself more attractive in term of character and talent.
Lolx. Let's make it possible!

Hm
One note for beverly if you are looking at my blog:
Do thing which you believe and benefit yourself. Do not listen to what other says. Believe in your decision. I believe you are old enough to judge and decide on your personal stuffs.
And~ GOOD LUCK for your A level.
See you in the near future. It has been awhile that i have last seen you.

It's late. Time to sleep. Night.

it's been awhile that i last blogged. well, i was busy for the last few months. i have worked hard for the upcoming audit, trained my vocal, and tried to make use the time i have now. It is already the fourth month since i have joined for the vocal course in Virtuso Arts. I start to feel the improvement in my singing, and it is getting better in term of my vocal range and pitch though it is still not prefect yet. Afterall, i just begin to train. It takes years to be a professional, which is something i wish to achieve. Of course, other than my singing, i also worked hard in my unit's audit. Even though it is just a merely checking of the documents, i feel that we still have to work hard for it. To me, it likes a goal. If i can score well in it, i will feel a sense of achievement as i have achieved a goal, it will motivate me to strive even harder to achieve other goals and i will feel nothing is unachievable. Is'nt it right? Anyway, i have waked up and started to read. I'm reading more yet it still have not sparkled my interest in it. Ya, i will work hard on it as reading is important for improving my english. As you guys can see, my structure is not good and the words i'm using is limited. Sad. What to do? I only can blame myself for not doing anything to my standard of english. Well, well, well... i think i would leave the rest of the words i wish to say to the next blogging. More is coming in next blog. Night guys.