yeah. Today, i went out with fel fel n mad mad again. haha, and again, i kept on teasing them. They cant tolerate all my craps. They were either lauging again and again or.. that mad mad will complain complain complain.. Not a bad day either for them i tink cos they are quite happy with me around crapping away. And tat fel fel, she made me wait for her for 50 mins!! kaoz. haha. Actually hor, it was me who was early. Im early by 30 mins. Still, she was late. She was late by 20 mins.* Laugh out loud* she hor.. always ganna me bully de though she is older than me by just hmm...3 months...and she will always be proud of tat...
whereas for tat mad mad, i tink she is older than me by 1 year? i forget le...Basically, im going out with 2 "old" women. I planned to buy some stuffs for christmas but then, i cant really find any good ones. We window-shopped for about 3 hours then, we decided to go to burger king there in the bursling shopping centre to rest. At there, i was being updated with some stuffs regarding fel fel de... Glad to hear fel fel has a bf, and somehow he sounds not bad.
All the long, i dont knw what i myself am thinking about.
What i meant is that, i dun really knw what i really want. As far as i knw, i know fel fel for about like 5 years le? and along the way, there were crushes here and there... whenever im with her, my heart will somehow...lost my way and ended up liking her...
Everytime was lidat...
And i dun really knw what to do...
If i woo her...i scare i dun have ability to support or wat..since i dun have any experience in bgr
plus, i dun wan to lose this good friend of mine.
furthermore, im scared of rejection. Maybe, fel fel dun knw tat bahz.. i dun really dare to woo her becos i scared of tat...
Probably, im tired of tat. And sometimes, things might turn out worse...if we do not manage things properly. Like for instance, guy A likes ger B. And B rejects A, afterwhich, their friendship turns sour? or perhaps.. they cant really face each other again...there are many senarios which it can evolve to if we dun really manage things properly..so i dun really like rejection.
I knw fel fel is a girl whom i tink i like her character.
Independent, strong....
This type of girl is the type which always attracts me the most.
Yet, i dun dare to woo her.
Maybe, i dunno how to manage a relationship or wat? i believe something is bothering me but i dun knw wat it is..
Now, she is with other guy. But, i dun feel any sense of sad. weird rite?
i just feel..as long as she is happy...and we can stay this kind of friendship..
im really very satisfied and lucky enough le..
this kind of friendship..always a comfort for me...
for once, i feel someone (as in friend) who does care me..
and for once..
i cant really differentiate between gd friend n someone i like..
probably..
our relationship has gone to a stage where i n her dun really knw what our relationship is le bahz..
i tink i stop here..
i wanna sleep le..
bb
nitenite to everyone,

11th Nov'05