After a long day of study, i'm back home at last.
I do not know why i feel so moody at the end of the day. I don't feel like joking, laughing, and talking. I feel like having some peace and getting someone to talk with me. **Sms received's sound**it was beverly's sms. One way or another, i feel so happy to have friend like beverly.
She always trys to console and help me whenever i'm down or unwell. She's always so caring. If it isn't chialing, i might be interested with her. Haha! kidding la..Good~ at last i can joke already.
I cannot admit that she's nice. i only feel she don't suit me even though i still do not understand her well enough. I want someone like the girl in the movie," My sassy girl". I know it's hard or i should say impossible to get someone like that girl. However, i like that type of girl. Always bully and scold me, but actually deep inside her heart, she cares about me, this might be the one that i will like.Lolx, i do not know what i am actually thinking about. I think i'm alright already.
I guess it's time for me to find information on my general paper already. Bye.

I'm back again!Back to write my blog. Ya. As i was looking at guan xuan's testimonials, i felt so worried about her when people kept telling her not to be stress, and be cheerful again. To me, it sounds like she have problems now. And i felt i want to help her just like in the past, but, i realise things are not the same like the past already. I felt i was dreaming for the past few months all the long, i have not waken up until when i realise that i'm no longer with her, no longer in the state that i can help her. We have gone the separate route. She went to polytechnic while i have gone to junior college. We both have chosen the way we want. And this also means i have lost contact with her long ago. I felt maybe it is because i still can't accept the fact i have lost contact with her and i no longer can see her again.
Right now, though i know we are impossible to be together, i still have feelings with her. Not saying i do not wish to accept or like other girls, but i can't help it. I just kept wondering about how she is, how her life is. In my life, this might be the first time i'm so serious about love. Serious in the sense that i still have the feeling for a girl after eight months, knowing that it is impossible for me. Nevermind, i bet time will slowly dissolve the feelings ba. By then, i think i can accept other girls.
End here.
-Haoyi-

Again, i'm back to write my blog. Nothing's much happened today. Oh ya! I had got back my physic saturday test. And as i expected it was badly done. Over sixty marks, i got twenty-nine. Quite bad luck right?i only need one more mark so as to pass.
Hai. This is not the first time i failed my test papers already. I have been failing my saturday tests. My chemistry and maths have also failed too. And again, for both subjects, i also need a few more marks to pass or i should say three marks to pass. Sad to say, i'm been struggling to pass my papers ever since i began my jc study. Not saying that i never pass my paper before, but it is hard to pass. In contrast with my secondary school study, it requires more of all those foundation of pure science and A math rather than hardworks.

I do not dare to say i studied hard. But at least, i did study for it. My expectations are to get A for my core subjects. However, it seems so far to reach now. Right now, i just hope i can pass my promotional examinations and successful promote to Jc2. As everyone knows i'm a normal acadamic student, which means i'm older than those jc1 by one year, so i could not afford to retain one more year. As my age is getting older, the jc will not allow me to continue study if i'm over twenty years old. Simply, i need to study hard and get myself promote. Nowadays i feel quite pressurized as i see there is no improvement with my result and the promotional examination are coming.
Hai. What to do? I chose this route to study in jc. So i think it is time for me to focus more on my study rather than my basketball.
I think i end here.
Bye.
-haoyi-